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Feeling super down tonight
Jun. 10th, 2012 12:07 amSo here is an entirely self-indulgent entry of things that should make me feel better, however insignificant:
1. Annual review for my one-on-one moved up to Tuesday, and after talking with the SLP, we both agree he doesn't need a one-on-one anymore -- and our department head was heading up the meeting this discussion transpired at, so I will probably not be with him next year at all.
1a. One-on-one has signed up for an AP class, which is something new, different, and challenging for him (he was recommended for, like, four AP classes, but taking one is a HUGE step for him.
1b. Listening to him talk to other kids just... kills me. Do you know how something can be heartbreaking in a good way? Like, it pulls you apart, but because it's so adorable? He will never be a social butterfly, but by God, he is learning how to be functionally social, and he is so damn cute. I just look at him and I'm like, "you know, you might actually just be okay."
2. Five days of classes left.
3. Summer program reunites me with the ENTIRE staff from last year, and I honestly COULD NOT be happier with that arrangement.
4. I love my coworkers. I know that's sort of startlingly all of a sudden and... vague. But I was at lunch on Friday just, like, actually TALKING with a few of them, and I realized that I've been more social and talkative with them this year because I've actually HAD lunches in the breakroom (my first year with my one-on-one I had lunches with him,and prior to that, I had lunch in LC with my "fanclub," lol), and despite most of them being old enough to be my parents (NOT an exaggeration) they are mostly just really cool and I like talking to them, and whatever else I can say about where I am, I am surrounded by good, good people.
5. I have inspiration for a fanfic for the first time in, like, ever. I'm actually going to seriously try to write it, too. For realsies. If it sucks, I won't publish it. But I'm going to be self-indulgent and write a fic I'd want to read, then set it aside, and then, if I still don't hate it, publish it. And I have a beta reader, too ;)
6. A few sparks (not fully formed, but there) for original fic as well. Excited.
7. The house is not clean, but it's manageable.
8. One week to the "Frankenstein" screening and meet-up!!
9. Thinking of being naughty and being "sick" Monday because two of the other assistants have already used up their days and then some, and I still have 39 days in my sick bank. I know it's not like, "ohh, I have them so let's waste them all," but seriously? Thirty-fucking-nine, y'all. If some of my co-workers have already used and surpassed their limits, I shouldn't feel bad about dipping into my reserve of fucking 39 sick days. ESPECIALLY when I'm going to take the initiative to email ahead and be like, "here are my special duties," and we're weaning my one-on-one off me anyway, so hey, good practice.
10. ....I FIT INTO A SIZE 10 JEANS, Y'ALL. You know the last time I was a Size 10? 6th grade, I fucking kid you not.
11. I still have most of my June budget to spend on what-the-fuck-ever.
12. I'm not pregnant!
13. I haven't been to the gym in two weeks, but my weight had stayed completely stable -- like seriously, not an OUNCE up or down during my weekly weigh-ins. I know I still need to get back on track, but hey, at least I'm not moving backwards (147 lbs., btw). I attribute this to several long walks (like, long long, like five to eight miles) at least twice a week and watching my diet.
14. Mum and I have vague, free-floating movie dates (she still wants to see The Avengers (would be the 3rd time for me) and we both want to see Snow White and the Huntsman), and I can actually afford both of them.
Hope you all are having a pleasant weekend, I am drunk and sleepy, so I will be going and hopefully feel better in the morning. Cheers.
1. Annual review for my one-on-one moved up to Tuesday, and after talking with the SLP, we both agree he doesn't need a one-on-one anymore -- and our department head was heading up the meeting this discussion transpired at, so I will probably not be with him next year at all.
1a. One-on-one has signed up for an AP class, which is something new, different, and challenging for him (he was recommended for, like, four AP classes, but taking one is a HUGE step for him.
1b. Listening to him talk to other kids just... kills me. Do you know how something can be heartbreaking in a good way? Like, it pulls you apart, but because it's so adorable? He will never be a social butterfly, but by God, he is learning how to be functionally social, and he is so damn cute. I just look at him and I'm like, "you know, you might actually just be okay."
2. Five days of classes left.
3. Summer program reunites me with the ENTIRE staff from last year, and I honestly COULD NOT be happier with that arrangement.
4. I love my coworkers. I know that's sort of startlingly all of a sudden and... vague. But I was at lunch on Friday just, like, actually TALKING with a few of them, and I realized that I've been more social and talkative with them this year because I've actually HAD lunches in the breakroom (my first year with my one-on-one I had lunches with him,and prior to that, I had lunch in LC with my "fanclub," lol), and despite most of them being old enough to be my parents (NOT an exaggeration) they are mostly just really cool and I like talking to them, and whatever else I can say about where I am, I am surrounded by good, good people.
5. I have inspiration for a fanfic for the first time in, like, ever. I'm actually going to seriously try to write it, too. For realsies. If it sucks, I won't publish it. But I'm going to be self-indulgent and write a fic I'd want to read, then set it aside, and then, if I still don't hate it, publish it. And I have a beta reader, too ;)
6. A few sparks (not fully formed, but there) for original fic as well. Excited.
7. The house is not clean, but it's manageable.
8. One week to the "Frankenstein" screening and meet-up!!
9. Thinking of being naughty and being "sick" Monday because two of the other assistants have already used up their days and then some, and I still have 39 days in my sick bank. I know it's not like, "ohh, I have them so let's waste them all," but seriously? Thirty-fucking-nine, y'all. If some of my co-workers have already used and surpassed their limits, I shouldn't feel bad about dipping into my reserve of fucking 39 sick days. ESPECIALLY when I'm going to take the initiative to email ahead and be like, "here are my special duties," and we're weaning my one-on-one off me anyway, so hey, good practice.
10. ....I FIT INTO A SIZE 10 JEANS, Y'ALL. You know the last time I was a Size 10? 6th grade, I fucking kid you not.
11. I still have most of my June budget to spend on what-the-fuck-ever.
12. I'm not pregnant!
13. I haven't been to the gym in two weeks, but my weight had stayed completely stable -- like seriously, not an OUNCE up or down during my weekly weigh-ins. I know I still need to get back on track, but hey, at least I'm not moving backwards (147 lbs., btw). I attribute this to several long walks (like, long long, like five to eight miles) at least twice a week and watching my diet.
14. Mum and I have vague, free-floating movie dates (she still wants to see The Avengers (would be the 3rd time for me) and we both want to see Snow White and the Huntsman), and I can actually afford both of them.
Hope you all are having a pleasant weekend, I am drunk and sleepy, so I will be going and hopefully feel better in the morning. Cheers.
