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Thoughtful Thursday (sort of?)
Aug. 11th, 2011 11:19 pmToday I made another junk book.
( you fit into me )
This was actually the second one I made today; I didn't even finish the first one. It was the same poem, the same purpose, but it's like I got "over excited" and just really started rushing through it. I've said it before, I like "doing" but I like "having done" more - my pursuit of the goal is often at the risk of the experience. So I forced myself to take a little more time and really picture what Iw anted this to look like; I wanted it to be a one night project, and I wanted it to be simple (something overly complicated just wouldn't suit the poem), and while this is not exactly what I envisioned, it is a hell of a lot closer.
It's not like I do it intentionally, but my own impatience (which, again, I think if an off-shoot of my attentional issues) often seems to sabotage my projects. Like, "oh God, I better get this finished while I still have the momentum and the motivation."
Mayeb someday I won't be like that, and I'll be a normal person and I will do things I enjoy and actually enjoy doing them.
( you fit into me )
This was actually the second one I made today; I didn't even finish the first one. It was the same poem, the same purpose, but it's like I got "over excited" and just really started rushing through it. I've said it before, I like "doing" but I like "having done" more - my pursuit of the goal is often at the risk of the experience. So I forced myself to take a little more time and really picture what Iw anted this to look like; I wanted it to be a one night project, and I wanted it to be simple (something overly complicated just wouldn't suit the poem), and while this is not exactly what I envisioned, it is a hell of a lot closer.
It's not like I do it intentionally, but my own impatience (which, again, I think if an off-shoot of my attentional issues) often seems to sabotage my projects. Like, "oh God, I better get this finished while I still have the momentum and the motivation."
Mayeb someday I won't be like that, and I'll be a normal person and I will do things I enjoy and actually enjoy doing them.
